Of My Moleskine Notebook

I called the MPH offices just a few minutes ago to find out the results to this year’s prizes since their website is un-updated; naturally, and my not being able to attend the prize giving ceremony due to my being here.

And I checked out the names of the winners in the shortlist, and I can’t help but realise they come from good schools and probably have had a better education than I did and probably have fantastic intellectual and emotional breakthroughs ever so often; more than I do.

One problem that I’ve been trying to overcome, and which many of my close friends realise that I mull over in my head too often and too much is of my education. I don’t know anyone else who rants about the state of their method of instruction, or their intellectual frustrations more than I do. And I don’t mean it in the “I-am-far-smarter-than-this-shit” crap, of condescending a level of the subject being taught but just for the fact that I think all of us have a higher potential of understanding; and that we should be chased around the mill to fully utilise our young, porous, minds.

I know this is really wrong of me, it’s not just unfair to all of you to read this shit, to those very close few who’ve I’ve ranted countless of times to, especially. And no, I’m not trying to solicit sympathy; I just need to rant and don’t plan on wasting my real Moleskines on it.
But I know this is just another hormonal disruption + inferiority complex gone wrong thing and it’ll pass. I am not wronged by the world; being in a shit school doesn’t justify anything of what I am and as I should have learnt a long time ago, there is more to life than being smart. It’s about doing what’s right and that doesn’t include this.
I just need to SUMO; Shut Up and Move On, but right now, its Hippo-Time. (A time to wallow and just mull things over before making a move)
I’m going to wallow, drink lots of soya-milk, listen to Damien Rice and watch evangelical Christian Creationism DVDs. Though rather than amusing me, it pisses me off. No one should be allowed to call Charles Darwin “Charlie”. Especially not someone charged with tax evasion with Dinosaur Adventure World in their backyard.